*LET'S HELP EACH OTHER OUT!!!* Mini rant and chit chat
Nov 26, 2018
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excuse me
just chill in here as I have been all
weekend long it has been just one of
those weekends where I seriously I have
done nothing this week and I really have
not like I just I just took the time
down that I needed to recuperate my body
and not just recuperate my body but also
just giving myself that time down that
I've just needed and I went through all
my Nell stuff today and just sit just
sifted through things that you know I
needed to hear some of my well this is a
very little amount of my gel product
those are just polishes that I use today
you that's the fun about having your
nail stuff because you could change your
colors designs whatever you want
whenever you want you don't have to wait
for it so I did I played around with
them today and I see it that's gonna be
kinda blurry but they're not perfect but
you know what I don't care saves me
money and I enjoy doing them so I had a
little bit because I've never done like
decals on my nails if I ever want to put
something on my nose I just always just
painted on her whatever it is but I
thought I had gotten these things from
wish like months ago and they've just
been floating around no making messes
everywhere so I thought hey you know
what I'll put them to use and just try
them out and they're okay but I mean I
didn't I didn't know how to I don't know
if you guys well I took care of him
actually this this is the only one
that's a butterfly because the butterfly
clearly was
not working in my favor it's really
blurry but um I actually have like a
little bump right there on the top where
I can feel like it's not okey or
anything it's but it looks 3d because I
had to put a little bit of extra gel
just to like clear gel de tuck the wings
under because it was kind of sticking up
a little bit so I could feel just the
tip of it and I was like nope I'm not
gonna be able to do that but there are
some of them are all smooth to the touch
of the Nell's I just literally just got
done and I painted as for his nails cuz
of course she needed her nails painted
so I told her if you leave mommy alone
for just a few minutes and let me show
you mine I will paint her nails so she
made me paint them blue and pink so that
is what I did and then I went through my
junk drawer down here because my oh my
did it look like a jungle found lots of
little goodies in there
things that I forgot I even had so tons
of pins that were much needed and were
lost for a moment in time and um and I
was it like I just I don't know I I
literally have just done nothing I've
done the laundry all day uh I have done
that I did succeed in getting my laundry
pretty much caught up except for what's
in my bedroom right here which I just
noticed my basket was full and I'm like
haha
so I've gotten laundry but pretty much
caught up and this room is clean the
bathroom is clean Jeremiah's room is
clean it is just the kitchen in the dead
living room that's probably uh pretty
messy but the kids have been out there
playing and I've been in and out all
over the place cuz I gave the babies
baths today and Jeremiah took a shower
today to get ready for school tomorrow
and so it's just been like getting
everything back to going so we can get
back on schedule and so starting
tomorrow I start with doing my workout
again and then I'll do the Monday
Wednesday Friday Saturday walk
today for all for eating I had let's see
for breakfast I had one egg one
scrambled egg and one sausage I just
wasn't really hungry this morning so it
was all I had and then for lunch I had a
frozen lunch
it was 320 calories so it's not bad so I
had that for lunch and then I had a
couple crackers for snack and then I
won't eat again until all he is still
out with his friend but when he gets
home then we're gonna just heat up
leftovers of Turkey and the mushy for
dinner and then that is what we're
having he did buy a pumpkin pie
yesterday I was I forgot he had bought
that so he had asked me last night he
was like do you want a piece I was like
I will take a sliver sliver just so I
can have a flavor of it um and that's
satisfied my tooth like my sweet tooth
and my need to want to have a dessert
after turkey dinner um so I did do that
but that was it that's all I've had and
I've just been drinking lots and lots
and lots and lots and lots of water
along with the water I have been
drinking this just off and on literally
I have had this thing for probably five
hours and I still I'm not done it looks
Muhtar II because well it is to be
honest because it's the ice is melted
into it but um I still get the sea what
did he order me today a vente I skinny
caramel macchiato single pump of our
single single thing of coffee that's
called and then upside down so donuts
we don't have donuts oh you want your
lane actually so anyway so that's pretty
much all I've had to eat snack
there's nothing really of coffee left in
it but cold water I wanted to welcome
all of the new subscribers I've been
saying this whole laalili because our
channel is growing I am so excited I was
like as I'm seeing the numbers going up
on my gear
this is good I'm enjoying this uh so
that has just definitely made me smile I
could not be more happy excited thankful
blessed to have so many amazing people
here on this channel and I'm so excited
you guys and I just want to say welcome
to all of you guys here go ahead and
just take it well that's just gonna
start a fight never mind um I just
wanted to say welcome to all of you guys
that I've just joined I'm glad to have
you guys here always feel welcomed and
free to comment and join in on
conversation I do do lives once a month
and that's when I do my giveaways so I
come on for usually about an hour and I
talk with you guys and interact so it's
really fun so I am truly excited to get
to me even more of you guys through my
life because then we can really chit
chat but yeah I just wanted to say
welcome to you guys because I have had
so many people linking on new subscriber
new subscriber and I'm just like oh
thank you thank you God for cute
continuing to grow this channel just as
awesome as it is I am just loving it
this week just for all you knew was this
is not a typical weekend for me me this
is not typical a me usually is always
going somewhere but this weekend I just
really needed to take some downtime for
myself and spend some good quality time
with my kids and and be able just to you
know spend time with my babies and deal
with the house and just little things
I just wanted to get done I've been able
to focus on getting done so this isn't a
typical weekend we stay home and the
vlogs are boring because normally no
that's not that's typically not it um
I've had a lot of people ask I've had a
lot of people message me and ask me what
what my total weight is of loss at this
point and as of this weekend I'm down
431 pounds and that marks me at 67 pound
weight loss so I've got a couple more
pounds and I'll be 70 pounds off so far
I I'm so excited and again for all the
newbies to bring you guys up to kind of
where we're at here so me and my husband
have a goal that if I can get down to
well here's the goal I said something a
little bit different so he said well
Kate I'm really wanting this machine
it's called the cricket maker if you're
not familiar with it it's a machine that
can do it cuts out like vinyl lettering
you could do lots of DIYs you can
decorate cups tumbler cups and shirts
and all sorts of good things and I want
to start a business a side business off
from YouTube doing that but the machine
itself not including everything else
we're gonna need just the machine itself
is a $400 machine and of course you know
my husband wants to just go out and get
it for me because it's something I want
and I said no you know why I said let's
do this
if I buy January 1st I can get under 400
pounds then I can receive my Cricut
maker and he was like okay that sounds
fair he's like that gives you an
incentive to really want to press
forward and do it and you know work hard
for it and then I was like I'm thinking
about I was like you know I have to get
dumb um anyways so I a couple days later
was thinking about it I'm like
you know I have a better idea how about
I have to get down to 398 pounds because
that would mark me out 100 pound weight
loss in six months if I lose by the time
I get to that mark of January first so
that is my goal you guys is to get to
398 pounds by January 1st which I can do
it I can do it with dedication and hard
work I can do it so I have set that
above you know that goal towards myself
me and Ollie that I have to get down to
398 pounds and I will get everything I
need to open my business so I am super
excited it just gives me such an
something that I want to do so bad so it
gives me a great Senate --iv and also I
can only imagine if I'm feeling a lot
better today by how much I've lost so
far I can only imagine when I lose a
hundred pounds like I can't believe it
so I am very very very optimistic that
this can happen but with that last week
I was a very lenient with my eating I
was very lazy with my exercising and so
I paid for it on the scale by only
losing two pounds which two pounds is
great don't get me wrong but a me can do
more I know I can I know I'm highly
capable of it so I am pushing this week
to lose a good amount so I am gonna be
pushing out some good workout videos for
you guys this week because you guys are
what keeps me accountable and I have
something to work hard for
so anyways yes I want to bring everybody
up to to where we're all a so we're all
equal here and a few guys are not like
what are you talking about and then the
other thing that I was gonna bring up
was so I had a comet er that was talking
about wanting to start a video art start
a YouTube channel excuse me and you know
at first when I very first started a few
months back actually
it was very intimidating it was very
scary it was very like it just seemed
like it was so hard to do
and me and Lee had talked about it for
about four months prior to me actually
picking up the camera and deciding temp
ie before I picked up my camera me and
only had been talking and you know and I
had expressed to him that it was
something that I was interested in but I
just didn't know the ins and outs I
didn't know what to do and I had watched
multiple YouTube videos about how to
start a YouTube channel and it seems so
intimidating because there's so much
information and so much you know notes
that you should be writing and all these
things and you know and people saying oh
my god you know YouTube is such a hard
thing to do it is so hard if you're you
know if you are not dedicated forget it
you know because it's just it's a really
hard thing to do now as somebody
commented to me and made that comment
that you know she really would like to
start a YouTube channel and she just you
know she doesn't know where to start
with it and you know she doesn't really
want to put money you know she doesn't
want to go and buy a really expensive
camera and stuff she asked me what you
know camera product I used and I said I
use my iPhone I don't have a camera I am
NOT about going to buy high expensive
cameras that are gonna do the same job
and quality that my iPhone is gonna do
and I've had multiple people tell me
that my quality of my videos are perfect
so why I mean and I have I really
honestly have a thousand dollar camera
sitting in my in my safe that we bought
when Omar when I was pregnant with Omar
cuz I had a camera previously for
Jeremiah when he was a baby and that one
I had I think at the time I spent like I
say like 400 for it and I had that one
from the time he came home until I got
pregnant with Omar but that cam
was starting to you know act up in stuff
it was an older camera obviously
Jeremiah Nomar seven years apart so
there you go it's seven years old and I
used it all the time to video him and
take pictures of him and stuff so I you
know mean all he had talked and I was
like you know I really want to go into
the market and you know buy a really
good camera that's gonna last us for a
lifetime and you know something that's
gonna give us great quality pictures you
know because pictures are very important
to me and they are they're very
important to me if you see my bucket I
just had it in here actually a little
bit ago if you've seen just one of my
multiple buckets that I have that holds
all of my CDs to all my pictures you
would be shocked pictures are everything
to me okay I need you to be careful
um pictures are everything to me and so
are videos cuz you know those are the
fun things to go back and you know and I
have videos from when Mya was a baby on
my phone that I have just transferred
throughout the years to all my new
phones and you know same with the babies
now and it's like I sit back and I just
watch those videos and reminisce about
those times and what was going on in my
life at that point and they mean a lot
to me and so we did we went out and we
bought a camera it was like nine hundred
and fifty dollars it was expensive and
we got from shutterbug I believe and I
it honestly we used it we could not
hardly figure out the camera itself we
used it for the time that Omar was born
which I was really upset about because
when I had s run I didn't use that high
expensive camera
I used my cell phone and I the nurse was
in there the nurse that was in the room
when I delivered her because she was
sisa well both of my babies for
c-section she stood there and clipped
picture after picture after picture I
mean literally I think we you're gonna
spill that you have to you tilt it like
this
okay um I think I walked out just with
my delivery alone like 120 pictures okay
she just stood there collecting
collecting click
I have got down to detail pictures of
when they were like opening me up and
moving all my organs around I mean I was
just like whoa
but I love those pictures now with Omar
because it was a different kind of
Camryn the nurse was having a hard time
figuring the thing out I think I got
like four pictures of him being
delivered and then after that I mean
yeah Ollie tried to take pictures of him
while he was in the NICU and stuff but
it wasn't like you know we didn't get as
many pictures as like even one that I
got from her like you know when I was in
the hospital with just her and the
family had left for the evening and so I
was able just to sit there and you know
use my phone and just click pictures
after pictures and so it was so much
different so for me honestly the high
end in el reality we got both of the
kids as pictures developed and as far as
pictures actually came out more clear
than even Omar's pictures did from the
high-end quality camera so just because
something cost high expensive money
doesn't mean you're getting something
that's like high-end quality camera
pictures I'm just this is my opinion and
this is my experience I'm not saying
it's everybody's experience so anyways
back to the message so she was like you
know I just didn't want to you know
spend a bunch of money on camera you
know Omni camera what kind of you know
camera do you use and I was just like oh
I use my iPhone she's like oh my gosh it
you know the the quality is perfect you
know when I was just like thank you you
know I've heard that a lot and so as I
was commenting back to her and I you
know I gave her my email and told her
you know you look in my description and
get any of my contact information
through any of my social medias reach
out to me anytime I will help you in any
way I can to start this I said but you
know what if you here's that here's a
few tips oh I'm just gonna give you
right off the bat I said one is if your
heart is not into it and you're not
don't look at it as doing a job don't
think as
YouTube is a job if you look at in that
way it's almost like the fun is sucked
out of it before you even start and I
mean that with all highest respect to
all youtubers you know is that if you do
it because you enjoy it
that's where your channels gonna be
growing and the passions gonna be
showing but if you're doing it because
you feel you have to or because you want
the money if that's what it is um it's
not gonna be as fun for you and it's not
gonna be an enjoyment another you know
comment that I I made sure to tell her
was that you know I hear a lot of
youtubers say that YouTube is so hard
and I I don't understand that comment I
clearly don't get it because I sit there
and I'm just like where is YouTube hard
like I wake up in the morning I am so in
like excited to get into my day so I can
start showing you guys what's going on
in our lives and you know you have
granite sometimes there are days that I
don't check within with you guys until
later in the afternoon clearly not
because I feel I can't but you know
there are times where it's just not
feasible for me to grab my phone and do
it I'd love to show you guys of my life
I love to show you guys my story my
journey everything about me and my
family I love sharing those things and
my whole family has signed up for it you
know I asked well besides the babies I
asked Jeremiah and I asked Ollie you
know do you guys mind being on video you
know cuz this is gonna be mommy's
channel but you know it's a family
channel and I want to show our entire
family off to everybody and you know and
all that has to come with it and they
were both agreeance to it so I just
don't understand that comment when I
hear YouTube is so hard because to me I
guess because it is a true passion of
mine I love reaching out to people I
love being there for people and sharing
a story that possibly might have been
something bad on my side might seriously
help some
so I love being able to express my
feelings express whatever it is that I'm
going through at the time because not
only have I been able to express myself
to you guys you guys have given me this
act same expression back you guys have
shared your life stories with me I have
gained hundreds of new relationships
from people okay that was fine I've you
know grown to get to know so many people
on so many high levels that it's so
amazing to me to know there are so many
awesome people out there and when I say
that right now I'm talking to the 683
subscribers that I have right now
because that's the last number I seen
it's all of you every one of you guys
there are some subscribers that sit
quiet and I understand that there are
others that are constantly in
conversation with me there are some that
are quiet on the message board but they
are constantly in conversation with me
in private you know messaging and that's
all okay because I'm building
relationships on every level possible so
I feel so sad when I hear people say
that YouTube is such a hard job and
don't get into it because you know it's
not as easy as people think and it's
like it's not a job it shouldn't be a
job anyways yes you can get paid that is
that is a that could be an option and
maybe one day I will grow to a point
where I could possibly make a little bit
of money to be able to put forth you
guys go fine but you know if I received
money from my youtube channel it would
be a complete blessing in disguise
because I'm not expecting that and if I
did that money would be so awesomely
invested back into my channel to give
back to you guys because of you guys is
why I would be making the money so of
course I'd be
able to do more awesome giveaways and
more awesome DIYs to be able to do
giveaways and you know just everything
is so awesome when it comes to my
channel I can't speak for anybody else's
Channel
I don't know what everybody else's
channels are made for I don't know some
of them they might be doing it and
receiving money because that's their
income some of these people are making
YouTube channels and are not making
money at all but they love to do what
they're doing as I am I am i I am doing
this and I'm loving it I love my channel
so much and that means I love all of you
and so it just saddens me when I hear
those comments but back to what I was
saying cuz I clearly went off on a rant
there for a moment
um you know when I told her I said you
know I will be here to help you the best
I can
I'm still learning you guys I'm still
trying to figure everything out there is
a lot to know about YouTube now don't
get me wrong there are there's a
difference between YouTube is hard and
YouTube is quite a bit of learning to
how to process things for the most part
I think I've catched most of it until
you get to adding ads and things like
that I don't understand all of that
because I'm not there and quite frankly
I you know I'm okay with that at this
point I love doing it and keeping it
simple right now if we add ads later
then you guys will love me anymore or
even more not anymore
um but you know I just I told her I said
you know if I can help you in any way to
start your channel let me know I will be
here to help you that is my passion is
to help others reach their passions and
if YouTube is their passion let's hit it
if whatever else your passions are if I
can help you reach that passion let it
be
but that is my passion is to help others
and so I find it kind of sad sometimes
because when I very first started I
remember personally asking quite a both
not quite a few but a few known
youtubers that I know respond back to
people quite often anyways I asked them
for a little bit of advice you know like
well you know what programs did you use
or you know did you use a camera or you
know same simple questions just easy
questions that could be answered and
every time I got ant there you know they
they answered me was you have to
monetize your videos first well you
can't monetize your videos first you
have to build your channel before you
can go to that step but nobody wanted to
give you the step by step process to
help you the YouTube shouldn't be a
competition to me I don't feel it should
be a competition it's all about doing
what your desire is everybody's channels
might may be different you know some
might have you know shopping hall is
what their channel is about another
could be comedy another one could be
reviews mine is my journey every channel
is different so there's no there should
be no fear of competition but sadly
that's where this role has come to is
everything's got to be competition
everything's got to be oh well that
person's gonna get an upper foot on me
so I'm not gonna help them out because
god forbid if she ended up with one
extra subscriber over me you know not
gonna do it and it's like how sad you
know how sad why can't people be
friendly that's why it's so important to
me to make sure to comment back to every
one of your guys's messages and respond
to you guys because I personally enjoy
this this isn't something I'm forced to
do and I would hope and wish that other
youtubers would lower their pride just a
little bit and be more friendly not be
so critical all the time and not be so
negative all the time
others out if somebody is in need of
just having some minor questions
answered answer them if you don't know
the answer maybe point them in the right
direction or you know send them a link
to a video you've watched maybe what
they watch my click that you didn't
understand in that other video you know
it's all about helping each other out
and I feel so sad when I see so many
people not willing to help a fellow
youtuber out that's just starting out or
helping somebody out in the world that's
just starting out on a certain thing of
whatever it might be due to the fear of
competition or or you know if you've got
a high okay honey that's okay you know
if you have a high you know a hi coat
count of subscribers then I sometimes
feel like people get a big head you know
on their shoulder like they're they're
much better so they don't need to waste
their time on a new youtuber because you
know they they've made there they've
made their count they don't need to
worry about helping somebody else out
how sad because you know what if I ended
up with a million subscribers you better
bet right now mark my word if a new
youtuber came in and said hey could you
help me out and help build my channel I
would gladly and lend a hand hold their
hand and walk them through the process
because you know what that's what
everybody should be doing but sadly we
don't find that all the time so enough
with that ranting because boy oh boy am
I just going on tonight it's one of
those days okay but yeah I just wish
that there would be more people out
there that would be willing to help
because I know but I just wish that
there would be more generous people out
there because I know that I have fallen
into that a couple times where I've
reached out and I've just asked you know
I've done research and I've done
studying but sometimes that's not enough
sometimes you need to talk to somebody
that has experienced it personally that
can maybe give you a couple little lower
hints of help just to help you a little
bit more and unfortunately there's not a
lot of us out there that will do that
but know that if you have a question
about it about building a channel I will
do my very best to help you I cannot
answer every question because I don't
know every answer I'm still learning
myself I'm still getting rejected from
answers that I've asked multiple times
from people so now I just had to take
hours upon hours to try and figure this
out and I am learning but it would
always help if there was just one
youtuber that had a little more
experience that would say hey Amy you
know what here's the steps that I took
to get successful do this and this and
this and I bet you that would probably
help you out and if you need the links
for me to help you even more let me know
sweetheart I'll send them to you we'll
do this and we'll build your channel
that's what I wish people would do but
no Amy never got that so but I will I
will give that to anybody because I want
to see other channels grow because it's
not a competition it shouldn't be a
competition it's all about fun it's all
about sharing experiences lives journeys
and that's what it should continue to
stay about not who's gonna make more
bucks because this person has more
subscribers than this person and let's
drag this person down to gain more
subscribers because I can make you know
this person look bad and that person
subscribers are gonna come to this
person subscribe channel because they're
talking mad crap on them and you know
it's just dirty it's so dirty and I'm
just like wow come on guys
let's have fun with YouTube let's bring
fun back in I swear my husband he can
time it in the perfect times as soon as
I am on a rant I'm ready to roll he'll
call me an interrupt my video how dare
him anyways but yeah so I hope you guys
enjoyed this rant team vlog today and I
hope that you guys somewhere found some
interesting information that I've posted
along the way today basically my message
is yeah let's be nice and bring fun in
back into the YouTube world and let's be
friendly to one another
um and I think that's it I think that's
my message I think so anyways I hope you
guys enjoyed this vlog today I will
check in with you guys tomorrow bright
and shiny in the morning because I do
have counseling tomorrow I've got a drop
Jeremih office no I do not have to drop
him off at school he walks to school
still getting used to that anyways but I
will check in with you guys first thing
in the morning on my way to counseling
and we will chit chat afterwards and
fill you in with everything that we
talked about at counseling until then
you guys sweet dreams b'bye
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